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Teen Mom OG star Amber Portwood’s fiance Matt Baier has been a staple on the series for a couple of seasons now, and the pair have often talked about how they bonded and became so close because of their joint struggles with addiction and then becoming sober.
Unfortunately, Baier recently had a relapse after many years of sobriety and it was while filming the current season of the hit MTV show which fans are now seeing.
“I had a drug relapse this year for the first time with prescription pills. I fell back into my addiction for about two months around December. I was taking a good amount of pills and I was killing the pain. Before I knew it I was back in the cycle and completely off my program. I was still convincing myself that it wasn’t as bad as it used to be but it was,” the 46-year-old told People.
The most recent episode that aired showed Baier having a freakout and say some ridiculous things while in Las Vegas with Portwood for a friend’s wedding, and he now says he was using again when that was filmed.
Watching the episode back, Baier said he was in tears because he had blacked out and didn’t even know he had said that. “That person that I was watching was not me, it’s not who I am. I remember getting really upset and I felt a lot of shame. Also, what I said is completely not how I feel and it also didn’t make sense. I do know that I allowed myself to have my buttons pushed that day, I just don’t remember it all that well. They just caught me on a really bad day.”
He continued, “When I saw that piece of tape I had no idea that even existed — that wasn’t me,” Baier continues. “I completely blacked out. I was selfish. I was rambling. I was not remembering something we had filmed just 20 minutes prior. I was in a really, really bad place.”
On top of his relapse, Baier was trying to keep it all from Portwood. “At first, Amber did not know about it, because I did everything I could to keep it away from her. That lasted a very short time,” he says. “She came to me concerned and said, ‘Look, we’ve been together for three years, I know you better than anybody, you need to tell me what’s going on.'”
Baier now says that he immediately got in contact with his sponsor and learned he never wants to go back to that life. “I would never want to go back to this life. I spent a lot of years sober and I was disappointed and ashamed that this happened but I am also going to grow from it. Now I have zero desire for it.”