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After a rollercoaster year, season 15’s Bachelorette is opening up about her emotional turmoil.
The 24-year-old took to her Instagram stories to share her recent feelings on “being happy” after everything she has been through.
“I want to share today’s devotion with you guys. A lot of people ask me, ‘are you happy?’ these days. And to be honest I hate that question, because I’m not some of the time,” she wrote. “Nothing about some of the circumstances I went through recently made me happy.
“I have moments of happy, but happiness is fleeting,” she added.
She continued, “However, I choose joy. And joy is so much better. It infiltrates the soul. It’s healing. Joy is the goodness of God cleansing my heart. Regardless of circumstances, I pray that today we all choose a little joy.”
Her new post on happiness comes only a few weeks after she admitted in a lengthy post that she was “struggling” after her failed engagement to Jed Wyatt.
“Honest policy: I’m struggling. Life is so different,” she wrote. “Since last August, I’ve been a pageant queen, a bachelor contestant, and the Bachelorette. I’ve been in love with multiple people, I got engaged, I broke off an engagement, and I shared it all with millions of people.”
Of course, she isn’t done sharing her story with millions just yet. Brown was named one of the contestants competing on season 28 of Dancing With the Stars!
“Can’t stop, won’t stop,” Brown said last Wednesday on Good Morning America, when the cast was revealed. “I am so excited. I want a fresh start, something that I can go all in with, emotionally, physically, spiritually, and I think dancing is something that I can do that with.”
Dancing With the Stars season 28 premieres Monday, September 16.